morbid_nikki

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 15:14:55 GMT

morbid_nikki's LJ New Year Party (Now At Least 19% Politically Correct!)

Started : 01st January 2006 07:04:00 AM

Ended : 01st January 2006 09:07:38 PM

Alco Money! : $ 376

Guests of Honour

xabsterx is an enlivening Wiccan. xabsterx drank 1 Mint Julep, 9 White Russians.
dude_rox_foreva is a bitter Hindu and a newbie drinker. dude_rox_foreva drank 3 Lagers, 8 Hot Toddys.
morbid_nikki is a jaunty Agnostic. morbid_nikki drank 18 Kahluas.
laderinmytights is a jovial Hindu. laderinmytights drank 1 White Russian, 4 Cognacs.
opalprincess is a demonic Fundementalist Christian who was voted the 'Most Boring Wench This Side of Suicide' in 2005. opalprincess decided to not drink because of their religious beliefs.
_rock__on_ is a lethargic Buddhist. _rock__on_ drank 4 Tequilas, 2 Mescals, 2 White Russians.
bear_blue_eyes is a sprightly Muslim. bear_blue_eyes drank 13 Rums, 1 Mint Julep, 5 Vermouths, 1 Brandy.
girl_fiend is an easy-going Hindu. girl_fiend drank 3 Stouts, 2 Mescals, 5 Cosmopolitans, 2 Ales, 1 Gin.

Sick!

Bloody hell! Was that pile of brown marks on the floor there last night, morbid_nikki?

Fights

A huge fight broke out between opalprincess and xabsterx after the former was reportedly sodomised xabsterx with The Bible.

Lovers

OMG, who would have THUNK it? It seems as though opalprincess and bear_blue_eyes have finally made their feelings known for each other and in style!

The Drunkest

morbid_nikki you just don't know when to stop do yer? Get down and give me 20! AND MOP THAT SICK UP!

Random Events

During a lively discussion on masterbation
revealed that girl_fiend was caught masterbating in bear_blue_eyes's sisters bedroom back in 1995.

girl_fiend and opalprincess took a shower together where they proceeded to hump like rabbits of the
night

Happy New Year!

Do you believe in all of that New Years Resolution shit? If not, celebrate the New Year as you mean to go on with the ultimate new years party from hell!

Enter your name below to experience the ultimate in complete useless bollocks!

y am i always the drunkest

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 12:40:16 GMT

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Disown my parents.

Get your resolution here

yay i always wanted to do that

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Get high on life.

Get your resolution here

lmao yeah that will be the day!

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Quit making the same damn mistakes in my life!

Get your resolution here

lol but its soo hard i try not to, but it keeps happening, i blame the alcohol!

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 20:01:42 GMT

Erotic Thriller

You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you.
Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you.

Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.
You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.
You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.
And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:

You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

At Your Lowest:

You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

In Love:

You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

How You're Attractive:

You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Having Fun?"

What's Your Power Color?

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 20:57:08 GMT

Hiya peeps

Got done for drugs the other day by my rents and my mum made me promise to give up and I’m like don’t make me keep fucking promises I’m going to brake,
Schools shit I don’t really go to class I skip most of the time and smoke.
It was a parent evening tonight and that was shit! I my progress report I got mainly E which is bollocks they wonder y I don’t got to class it the fucking teachers!

My rents are going away this weekend I wasn’t going to do anything but my mum tells me to stay at home ALL weekend! And I’m like hells no, so just because she said that I’m staying out all night and maybe get pg then announce it on Sunday at dinner that would be funny to watch.

Well that’s my rant for now

HOPE TO SEE U PEEPS ON SATURDAY!!! \m/

i'm in for it!

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 21:59:04 GMT

If Your Child is a Gothic, Reform Through the Lord!

Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your
child may have gone astray from the Lord.

Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child:

-Frequently wears black clothing.

-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.

-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish.

-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include:
reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other
Satanic worshipping symbols.

-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.

-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of
music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks
against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)

-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak
eccentrically.

-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such
as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.

-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic,
the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.

-Takes drugs.

-Drinks alcohol.

-Is suicidal and/or depressed.

-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.)

-Complains of boredom.

-Sleeps too excessively or too little.

-Is excessively awake during the night.

-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to
vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.)

-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.

-Spends large amounts of time alone.

-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)

-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.

-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and
elders are but a few examples of this.

-Misbehaves at school.

-Misbehaves at home.

-Eats excessively or too little.

-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this.

-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood.
(Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)

-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media
sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.)

-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.

-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.

-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.

-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.

-Expresses an interest in sex.

-Masturbates

-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.

-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.

-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth".

-Claims to be a goth.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.

~St. Mary's Catholic Church

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lmao mmm i think i need to seek help immediately

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 15:40:01 GMT

I got bored and decided to taker a shit load of quizzes

mmmmm

I am 85% Goth.

24-7 I am a freak. Every day is halloween. The creatures of the night fear me.

Take the
Goth Test
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I am 77% Tortured Artist.

Angst, and bitter resentment drive me to create works that not a single idot will ever come close to grasping. Ah, the raw and unforgiving statements that bleed from my soul are so misunderstood.

Take the
Tortured Artist Test
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Why do you cry?
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My Chemical Romance PARTY!!!
name
age
favorite member
favorite cd
favorite song
favorite color
what happens first?	first you 'trip' and fall into gerards lap
and next	gerard finds a bikinni in your room and changes into it
then gerard...	gerard does your makeup... and then his and u take pictures as twins...he says your almost as sexy as him
and what happens next	frankie and gerard kiss a lot then they kiss you ...yay.
when your sleeping	frank will cuddle up to your back then bone you up the ass and say he made a mistake thinking you were gerard.
when you wake up	gerard is laying ontop of you

This quiz by xXGerard_Is_Mine!_Xx - Taken 32 Times.

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Fri, 12 Aug 2005 18:40:20 GMT

Hey haven’t written in this in ages so I’m going to tell u about my week,
MONDAY: I was going to London with Jo and Alice after having to get up at 8am I was sitting on my bed to find a MASSIVE spider on my leg, it was gross!! After jumping around my room screaming I finally got dressed.
When Alice and Jo turned up we had to walk to the train station, alice had bought a bag of sweets on the way there. We were going to London so Jo could get her lip pierced so we when to Camden, I had to push Jo down the stairs to the hobbit hole in the ground there the piercing parlour was, she paid to get it done and she had to go in on her own while me and Alice waited out site alice asked if we could go in, or evan if only one of use to hold her hand but the guy said we would have to make do and hold each others hands. When Jo came out she looked like she was going to faint (she goes red and looks like she having a bad trip) Alice was trying to find a Starbucks for jo to sit down in but had to use a bus stop instead, alice when to get water as I sat with jo and got glared at.
On the way back to London waterloo we were on a tube and there was a bomb scare, this woman started screaming in the carriage in unfound of us “ITS ANOTHER BOMBING, GET OFF THE TRAIN” and banging on the door between are carriage (for some reason the song ‘the day that I day’ by good charlotte was playing in my head), jo took of running and grabbing alice hand leaving me there, now all that now me knows that’s a bad idea I’m really slow and when I did start moving I got separated from then, I remember alice trying to get back to me and screaming “WILL” and jo saying “she will be fine” as she kept running. I wasn’t really getting any ware at first I kept being pushed back I finally made it to jo and alice, jo looked like she was going to cry, then these loud bangs started to go off, everyone on the train though the bombs were going off, but a guy was trying to brake a window open and screaming “LET US OUT, LET US THE FUCK OUT” we were let out and just left the platform and when upstairs out of the tube, there was no one around to ask what happened so we put all are money together and got a cab back to waterloo.
As we checked to see what platform are train was there was a crying girl bleeding, me and alice said she should go back but jo said we would miss the train. I’ve never been so happy to get on a train home in my life. When I got home and told my mum her response wasn’t what I wanted she just said “these things happen.” And walked off she really didn’t care! All three of use were going back to jos to stay over, her mums response was the best we got about the tube thing everyone online where just like ooo well, and u should have now it wasn’t real.

TUESDAY: (to lazy to go into detail) when to see Herby after thinking we all really wanted to see it and when we sat down to watch it we realised no one wanted to see it, alice when home but I stay anther night. And at 11-30 we walked around jos area, also we Smoked and drank beer

WEDNESDAY: jo’s mum said we had to catch a bus to Bracknell and walk to jo’s collage so she nows were it is, we missed the bus by standing at the wrong stop, I started waving at the cars passing by after some ramdomer waved at me and I waved back we stopped that after peeps started stopping, an hour later we when to catch the bus and it come early and we just missed it again. When home and smoked and drank beer for the rest of the night

THURSDAY: we left for the bus and half way now the street we had to go back to go to the toilet, left again and actually got on the bus, we when shopping jo got red hair dye, and we tried to find the collage, we got lost and had to call to get direction we finally found it and had to get back for the bus, we got magerly lost and just missed the bus and had to call jo’s house, matt jos brother answered and said we would have to get the bus or walk because jo’s mum was out. We had to j – walk to get in the right direction to start walking back to ascot. We walked over half way back to jos and jos mum came and picked us up, when back to jos and smoked and drank beer and later I got droped home.

FRIDAY: today I just sleeped and keep away from my family I didn’t realise how much I hate then I cant wait to movie out!

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 15:19:53 GMT

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 20:53:39 GMT

Well I’m pissed at the skool.

I got a bloody call from them at 10 am WHO CALLS AT THAT TIME!!!! telling me no not telling, ordering me to come down to skool to clean my locker and the locker room, ok 1) I’ve already clean my locker there nothing bloody in it, 2) handed all my books back and my locker is open and 3) I am not The bloody cleaner!!

I told her this not in thoughts words but she didn’t take the hint and kept on saying i couldn’t get out of it so I told her I want coming and put the phone down.

Now I was in the worst mood ever (NEVER WAKE ME UP!!)

Then I when to get fags and was told I needed I.D ok I’m 17 and this has never happened be4 ever even at 14, I got to pubs and drink no I.D asked for what the hell is up with that!! So no fags which made my day a lot worse......maybe tomaz will be better....I hope...

AWESOME FRIDAY NIGHT \m/

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 23:44:32 GMT

Well I have written in this of ages so I will tell u about my Friday night *evil laugh* well it all started with a bag of crisp...no I’m joking!!

well it was the best night ever, Tanya, Steph and I had to change in skool so we could get are tickets in time, well it wasn’t as smooth as that, we walked out the front and just as the door closed be hide up we sure Miss Morrison out side, had a panic attack and we all when running into the locker room shouting we forgot books.

Well we decide to leave via the back door which worked, we got in Tanya’s mum car and I stared to floss my teeth......not quite sure y or how I had dental floss! And painted my nails black.

Well we when to pick up tannies aunty that has a strong ascent and I’m not quite sure what she was talking about.

We were going to the Agincourt in Camberley, and we spent ages trying to find it while Tanya fort with her mum about there it was! Was funny to watch!

After going around Camberley 4 times, going round the round about leavening the area of Camberley 3 times, and me waving to the person behind us because I was board and talking about the grant elephant (AH it was there Tanya I’m not crazy!!!!) we found it. after finding out we had to wait until it opened to buy tickets and Tanya seeing the band playing that night practice and saying really loudly there hot and (unknown to tannie (bless her lol))one of the band members there behind the door and herd all!!

Them we when around Camberley twice fighting over where to eat, we settled on food from Sainsburys.

It was time to get the tickets so we left for the car we all got it and proceed to put on make up to the dismay of tannies aunty saying it was unhygienic to share makeup. After and long lime of trying to work out how to pay for the ticket to leave the parking area, we left again. And waited out said the Agincourt were loads of CUTE emos were waiting. Steph left really out of place because it not really her thing and wanted to go home.

It all started of at 7ish when the doors open so we waited around. When we bought are tickets are hands got stamped with ‘This Is F*cking Urgent’

The bands playing were AWESOME!!! And people kept taking my picture which annoyed me all bloody night!! All u could smell was alcohol, tobacco and weed. (good mix ;-) ) Around half way thought there was no oxygen left and we walked over the Mc Ds for water (soooo dehydrated)

Some guy I walk past said ‘oo stars in the eyes’ and I was never quite sure what that means but Tanya says love or something. Meet Tanya couson and we said hello and sh*t.
Then we had to leave around 11ish steph was gone, Tanya was getting there and I couldn’t walk straight! We got given a cd form a band promoting there band.

When we got in the car with Tanyas mum she told us we weren’t old enough to do any of the following:
Alcohol
Smoke
Drugs
Boys
I felt bad lying because anyone who knows me knows I’ve done it all (*evil laugh*)

Well all stank of beer and weed and sang along to the radio and if I remember it was ‘girls just wanna have fun’ or some girl power song like that cant remember….that …much.

When we got to mine I got my stuff out and my Dad was opening the door I would walk straight and tripped over the grave and walking into the door way and said ‘its not my fault the bloody door moved!!’

After trying to find my bed without crashing into doorways (I cant do this when I’m sober!!) I crashed for the night.

The next morning I woke up 1pm to my sister, my hair and clothes stank and she was complain about the smell to me, (I actually liked the smell but that’s me) I washed my hair twice and it still smells and my hand still has the stamp on it, that wont come off!

Well I can’t wait to do that again!!

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 18:18:25 GMT

I'm bored so guess what.....there are yet more quizzes.....

You are a Mermaid, who sits on a rock in
the sea, looking and watching all humanity with
curiosity in your eyes. You have a two-sided
personality - On one hand, you revel in your
freedom and often prefer to live in your own
private dreams and on the other hand, humanity
intrigues you and you love watching on.

You
are actually very kind at heart and, hating to
see people hurt, you despise injustice. You
probably have one or two special friends, who
mean the world to you.

Also; you are probably
quite political, wanting to see justice done in
the world.

You are quite the dreamer, needing
your freedom and personal space to dream your
little dreams. You love to escape into a book
or some good music and just drift away.

Some
of your good points are that you are sensitive,
compassionate and a freethinker. Your bad
points are that you may come across as cool and
aloof to others and probably have a tendency to
depression.

You are the ultimate dreamer with
a kind - yet troubled heart.

Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!)
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Thu, 09 Jun 2005 17:58:04 GMT

You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.

What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Thu, 02 Jun 2005 16:21:50 GMT

ITS MY B-DAY IN SIX DAYS!!!!!!! WHOOP! 17 to old.... AND i got a trampoline today!

Mon, 30 May 2005 20:42:42 GMT

Your soul is broken.
You are living through a lot of pain everyday
that you have to deal with, which is making you
sorrowful. No one ever stays by your side when
you truly need them and no one ever will.
Everything is hopeless and tragic and you keep
yearning for the day you will be free from
pain. Love is unlikely to happen to you because
you isolate yourself and are suspicious of
peoples motives. You stand in the shadows of
the world, watching what you can never have.
The bruises you carry never seems to heal, your
mind is dark and no one seems to understand or
wants to help. As always, you will be alone in
the world, fighting your dark thoughts by
yourself.

How is your soul?(pics)
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Thu, 26 May 2005 19:15:17 GMT

my msn not working damn it!!

Went to Windsor today felt sooo out of place, everyone there dressed in pink and look all summer and I was dressed in total black, I think I should go to Camden I feel more at home there.......no I need to join a bloody circus to feel at home.....

ooo hell I’m just going to lock u all in my dungeon for the rest of your lives evil laugh

Thu, 19 May 2005 20:53:54 GMT

Well this is it, are life together at Brigidine is over and its good bye to u all, I want to thank u all for being SUCH great friends to me:

Steph - that’s you’re the great friend a person could have!! And u always try to do so much for me thanks for getting me my bag from hot topic! I hope u will love Bradfield I know u will! I hope u have a great life!

Alice- u weird peep I wouldn’t change u for the world!!! IM GOING TO MISS U MY BITCH!!!! And I hope u love your new school! Love your new hair and don’t let your mum get u down, your great and don’t let any one tell u different!

Tanya – thanks for helping me with my problems not so long ago u really helped *air hug* and I’m going to miss u u goodcharlottegreendaymychemicalromance freak!!! Seeing GC was great with u! *sings* And we laugh till we cry Always so hard to say goodbye (good bye) And we all sit round here in our home town It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss The memories, I hope they'll never fade Glowing embers lie across the sky* love that song.

Jo – you’re just spiffy!! Going to the sea was so much fun and getting alcohol poisoning with u and getting high in Camden and the whole going to London with u!! and to the contrary of what u say I don’t just love u for your money! We have to go road tripping when I get my car. Actually u will never leave me u will probably live at my house for the rest of your life. ‘homes not a happy place’ lol

T - \m/ rock on dude I’m gonna miss u but we have to go to a concert together one last time thanks for all your help!!! All I seem to do is wine at u! GC were great and you’re the best, hope u love Bradfield!

I love u guys!!!! And I DON’T WANNA GO INTO THE REAL WORLD!! It’s scary.
I away thought this time would never come and here it is and I’m not so happy anymore, we all have to have the best summer together! Spend all the time we can together and go to the sea.
Brigidine Gangsta we rule its fun being public menaces! We really thought we got away with that! The old peeps party and that song Alice kept playing anytime there was a dilemma, trying to catch that DAMN hamster with Alice and T, he mocks me at night I will get him! Going to on T’s boat and singing ‘a pirate’s life for me’ really loudly on her birthday! Trying to steal that guys water after GC, and all the times we spend trying to catch the year 10s smoking, Tanyas and mines jig, isle of white in that freezing place, will the showers all together and the pervy peep that tried to unlock the door as u showered naming no names *looks in steph and alices direction* and standing in some pond. Tying up Alice to a chair at the mtv awards and putting an apple in her mouth and leaving her there. Getting lost at Clapton junction and London Victoria. Walking around school scaring the crap out of everyone with my skeleton hand, Katie m had the best reaction! The time we went on Tanya’s trampoline and crashed her next door neighbour’s quite meal. And bringing in the wrong cat in her house!
Lij the log and the time me jo and tanya went to the great park at mid night and tanya ran way with the ONLY torch leaving jo and me in the dark then held jos front door close so we couldn’t get back in!
All the Halloweens FREE CANDY!!! Walking back from Windsor with jo and the old man grabs my ass……not such a happy memory! All the time we all nearly got ran over because we fail to look to see if a car was are coming.
Thoses damn hippos and the obsession with LOTRs! When alice broke her collar bone just at the start of the summer and jo insisted on standing on it! All the slash u guys were obsessed with….u still are! You guys are great and I will never forget u all!!! Don’t ever forget me please!!

And good bye to the rest of u Abby,Beccy, Bear, Esha, Frankie, Piggy, Foxy, Ele, Louisa, Jade, Katie, Holly, Anny, Steph S, G, and Jayne, I love all of you and will miss all of u!!

And I think this song is appropriate

"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

bored

Sun, 15 May 2005 18:41:35 GMT

Tue, 10 May 2005 21:10:12 GMT

this sums it all up

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

Sun, 08 May 2005 19:37:50 GMT

Yesterday was fun; I went to Maidenhead with Steph, Steph's sister, Steph's sister’s friend, Jo, and Tannie.
Me and Tannie were wearing total black and I felt a little out of place compared to all the townies around.
Jo and Tannie stalking 2 emo guys and met them up close and decided they were kinda scared of them and didn’t really like then, they got then to come over and after acting like they have never seem a guy be4! T’was funny to watch!! we when to the cinema and saw kingdom of heaven it was ok the only bits I liked were the fight or when someone one got there throat cut.
the walk back to Steph’s was fun as we were walking across a crossing a car beeped its horn and I then realised my shirt was open and that car was then going up and down the road beeping at us. When we got to Steph’s she has gates and her sister had gone in leaving us out so I climbed over her fence but its about 6 foot so when I was sitting on top of it finding it difficult to get down, 5 scratches later I was off the wall.

Mon, 02 May 2005 19:55:07 GMT

Well yesterday was total crap, what’s with the arguments about total shit who really gives a damn weather mcfly r moving or what!
I got funny looks today as I was walking around, im starting to think maybe dressing very gothic in a chav area is just asking for a fight.
My gran and my sis were total bitches to me saying my black hair is ugly and that i should dye it brown.
i never thought i would say this but i can wait for skool to get me out of this hell hole!

too died inside to die

Sun, 01 May 2005 22:21:24 GMT

Welcome to my life first floor pain and sorrow, second floor betrayal and fake friends, third floor neglect, roof suicide jumps

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 19:00:37 GMT

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 20:58:45 GMT

well today was shit after having to put up with total shit all day from certain people, i really hate girls there so pmsy and I don’t know how the fuck do guys date us! Girls r so back-stabbing and bitchy and can NEVER tell u what they really think. to me its either we have a fight or forget about it and go down the pub. sooo much simpler
Well at lest I finished my it and history c/w

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 21:45:13 GMT

AHH! trying madly to finish history c/w for tomaz! and i cant stay awake damn it! nether can jo! need coffie!!

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 18:33:12 GMT

well today was boring if I.C.T gets any boringer (is that a word?) i will die!!

I was thinking this summer is my last summer with all my friends were we can mess around and dont have to have jobs, then we have to grow up! I DONT WANNA GROW UP!!! i wanna be 16 forever!I will have to go to neverland so i can stay this age for ever!
im gonna miss u guys when your gone!

damn the aging process!

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Name
DOB
Favourite Color
It involves	A vibrating tooth brush
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Favourite Color
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ooo hell I’m just going to lock u all in my dungeon for the rest of your lives evil laugh